Chapter 4 - The Currency of Favor

Two days after the incident in the lobby, Ryan called me from a burner phone.
I answered because I didn't recognize the number, thinking it was a vendor from the Milwaukee warehouse.
"Liz? Please don't hang up," Ryan’s voice leaked through the speaker, rushed and trembling. "It’s me. Please."
I sat on my apartment balcony, watching the sunset over the trees. "How did you get this number, Ryan?"
"I bought a prepaid phone at Target," he admitted. "Dad confiscated my phone bill records to see if I was texting you. Liz... everything is a nightmare here."
I took a sip of my tea. "What happened?"
"Dad is out of his mind," Ryan stammered. "He’s obsessed with bringing you back. He went to your old college landlord to see if you had co-signed anything. He’s calling Aunt Linda every night screaming at her because he thinks she’s giving you money. And Mom... Mom doesn't even make dinner anymore. She just sits in the kitchen staring at your empty bedroom."
"They'll get over it," I said, though a cold ache formed in my chest for my mother.
"No, you don't understand!" Ryan burst out. "The car... the sedan Dad bought me?"
"What about it?"
"He didn't buy it paid in full!" Ryan confessed, his voice dropping to a panicked whisper. "He lied at the dinner party! He took out a four-year auto loan in my name using his credit as a co-signer, but he told the dealership I would be making the seven-hundred-dollar monthly payments starting this month!"
I went completely still. "He what?"
"He lied to impress Uncle Mike and the neighbors!" Ryan cried. "He thought... he thought if you paid nine hundred dollars a month in rent, he would use your rent money to pay my car note! That was his whole plan!"
The tea in my cup suddenly felt heavy.
The puzzle pieces snapped together with a sickening clarity. My father hadn't suddenly decided I needed a lesson in adult responsibility. He had made a thirty-five-thousand-dollar impulse purchase to feed his own vanity at a dinner party, and he had counted on his quiet, obedient daughter to foot the bill without asking questions.
"He was going to use my money to pay for your car," I whispered.
"Yes!" Ryan sobbed. "And now the first payment is due in five days, and I don't have seven hundred dollars! I don't even have a job yet, Liz! The interview on Tuesday fell through! If I miss the payment, it hits my credit score, and Dad says if I lose the car, he’s throwing me out too!"
I listened to my brother weeping on the other end of the line—the golden boy, the favored son, the boy who had spent his entire life being carried across every finish line, now drowning in the very water our father had poured for him.
"Liz... can you lend me seven hundred dollars?" Ryan pleaded. "Just for this month? I'll pay you back, I promise!"
I looked out at the sky turning deep violet over the horizon.
"No, Ryan," I said gently.
"Liz, please!"
"Ryan, listen to me," I said, my voice steady and unyielding. "For ten years, I did your homework. I covered your curfews. I smoothed over your fights with Dad. Every time I saved you from a mistake, I stole an opportunity for you to grow up. I'm not doing it anymore."
"He’s going to ruin my credit!" Ryan wailed.
"Then take the car back to the dealership," I advised him. "Sell it. Voluntary repossession. Walk away from his vanity, Ryan. Do what I did."
"I can't do that to Dad!"
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"Then carry his weight yourself," I said softly. "I'm done carrying it."
I hung up the phone, stepped inside, and locked the balcony door.